Smile through the emptiness:

I Smile till my heart is filled with the warm sunshine, I smile till people stop noticing my tears, I smile for the sake of my loved ones, and I make the world see the beautiful smile but most of all I smile to mock Dear FATE.

I have been told time and again about my smile and how it’s better than any ornaments I wear, but never ever did I imagined one day I will be left with only my smile, an empty hollow smile. I never thought I will have to remind myself to shine through the darkness or I will have to put an effort to smile, but destiny reminds me I am too small a thing to have it all. The FATE mocked me with a wicked smile and says "You can't beat my smile! I will teach you a lesson. Then we will see if you can smile"

I once held a man in my arm who fuelled my smile, who believed I could achieve heights of a diva with that smile, whose entire world light up looking at me smile and now I smile to keep him alive in me. I now smile to forget the dreadful memory of tragedy, hurt and the constant pain. I smile in expectation of hearing that familiar voice who filled my heart with love and brightness, I smile in expectation of one last touch. Dear FATE you mock me but I smile the smile for my love to keep him alive in my memories.

Life goes on and on as I let out lonely sobs for the loss I never envisioned and slowly force myself to move on with the mundane task of living, working, eating, sleeping and Smiling. Lonely hours spread across me reminds me of the dream I once held in my tight fist and how I saw it slip away into a pile of sand, dry dry sand. The helpless feeling of standing beside my lifeless love will never leave me alone ..... Dear FATE you mock me but I smile the smile for my love to keep him alive in my memories.

The melancholy of cold noises fill my ears every time I hear laughter and life, I relive my pain and my lips automatically break into a smile, the smile that melted him in my arms every time, one last kiss is all I want. The question haunts me like a ghost I cant see, am I dead within or I have just learnt to live with the loss? Dear FATE you mock me but I smile the smile for my love to keep him alive in my memories.

Rest in peace my love you have my happy heart forever but Dear FATE you can mock me with all your will and I will smile the smile for my love to keep him alive in my memories.

There will be another me in another lifetime but look up Dear FATE I mock you with all my will and my smile.

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